I want to thank everyone again for your good wishes and prayers and your patience with me—I know I haven’t been the best blogger ever lately!

     We found out a few days ago that Sesame (Baby A, closest to the cervix) is gone.  We suspected as much, as I had some spotting throughout last week.  I even worked from my couch one day because I thought maybe if I didn’t move, I could make it stop.  No dice.  When we went in on Friday, Sesame didn’t have a heartbeat, and the sac containing Sesame was shrinking. 

     The good news is that Poppy (Baby B) is still around, growing fast, and has a heartbeat, which is actually a really big deal!  (In a singleton pregnancy, at 8 weeks (this coming Saturday) with a recent sighting of the heartbeat, the risk of miscarriage plummets, some say to under 5%.) 

    Because the loss of one twin can lead to the loss of the other, I am considered “high risk” for at least one more sonogram.  They’re looking for Sesame’s sac to decrease in size as Sesame is reabsorbed.  If it doesn’t get smaller, my risk of miscarrying will remain elevated, because there is some chance that Sesame will be expelled through the cervix and take Poppy, who is otherwise viable, with him/her.

    How am I feeling?  Mixed, but generally positive.  Poppy has a better chance of being born healthy and avoiding the rare congenital heart defect possibly lurking in my husband’s gene pool if Poppy is a singleton.  This is about the least traumatic way one can have a miscarriage.